my life, my pace

Nevermind that I’m stuck at lab when I should be playing hooky or that I have a pounding headache that’s making it impossible for me to do anything besides sit here and fume over the state of my bathroom…it’s inspirational music for the grad student time!

This week’s song is: The Fray – Over My Head. The rest of their CD is quite good too, if you can get over the fact that “How to Save a Life” was played on practically every (medical) show out there this season.

Here’s a pertinent excerpt:
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through [yep, all my experiments are not working]
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue [I can’t schedule another experiment because our collaborators are busy collaborating with other more-important-than-me people]
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth [for my experiments to work]
But that’s how it’s got to be
It’s coming down to nothing more than apathy [yep, apathetic is how I feel at this point]
I’d rather run the other way than stay and see [that my experiments will never work]
The smoke and who’s still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head [because my experiments don’t work]
Over my head [because my major professor stinks]
With eight seconds left in overtime [I have less than a year to finish this PhD]
She’s [PhD’s] on your mind
She’s [PhD’s] on your mind

As always, send song suggestions to me through the contact form. *Thunk* That’s the sound of my head hitting my desk as I pass out from this headache.

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